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I dressed my wound yesterday, it went super well. I need to wash some more leggings; I don’t even have anything to put on.

my washing machine in broke, so I have to use the laundrette. problem is is that I’m too sensitive about getting my wound dirty to be able to fix it.

I did tho have a look at my scooter. I need to buy a CO2 thingy. I’m hoping that B&Q down the road have one.

I didn’t get and dirt on me.

Ik that if I come off it c be super bad for me tho I just wanna take a risk yk.

I bought a megarider that Ima get around cambridgeshire on. I want to be on the busses, bc walking f me.

I met this girl. she w an artist. she lived in a nice hamlet type place. I thought it might be nice to go out somewhere like that.

my feet are agony at night if I walk too much.

I ran w people following me, I thought they were chasing me and my life w in danger. I ran for like half an hour over sharp stones and f my feet, maybe longer.

I feel more like taking risks after this tho. I just feel more hundo better. everything makes sense to me now; after being in the hostpital and being around people.

I feel I w triangulated from anyone all my life, only having contact w a couple people w ASPD. I had never learnt out of my dysfunctional snake like dehumanising the f out of everyone behaviour.

it gave me the chance to see w people were like. it w good; I became more human. I want more of this, tho I like to stay away from everyone.

my home feels like a home. this is w I got from being around them, and dropping the feeling that; oh I can’t do this it’s too much.

I just wanted to get out of town and be rich. forgetting this allowed me to feel christmas feelings, it feels so good.

Maybe like a nice house in Bretton, or perhaps a flat in the city centre.

I dreamt about Elephant Park all my life. I went there a while back and realised this; it w profound.

I’m so confused. I want to play Bojonga w the currency markets. I might need to live there for this as I w have to be around the super rich. tho this offends my energy atm.

btw I hope Bojonga is not offensive in any languages, I made the word up; for bilking the markets for people who are strugging, countries that are finding it hard.

I see the world and I wanna fw it. I wanna see Africa producing all the energy for the entire planet.

I have the power, all I need to do is say please.

this is kinda scary. I need to hit up chip manufacturers and tell them a way I have of creating Graphine computer chips. it’s a new type of manufacturing method that w replace lithography.

rly having this inside, it’s unhealthy for me to deny that I must give it a go. I am blessed w the mind I have. why put up w all the bad that comes w it, like seeing the w in everything, and not delight in the good side of it and try and change some things.

To asking and saying please

Kirsty