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hey dudes

yo – I’ve just woken up, @ 11:30pm. I’m ready to start my day.

I’ve got coffee, and vape. I don’t have cafe tier coffee any more; not in the morning. I can’t even type when I’ve had one of those.

I can’t do my online work, it just triggers me too much.

It feels like a slap in the face; when I can’t do something, computer says no type thing.

My wound is so much better; it’s not spuing puss everywhere.

I feel securely attached. I w doing something last night and I just realised it. it’s like when I feel that people w help me out.

I felt old. It’s kinda scary. I hope that the Calcium Alpha Keto Glutarate helps me to like rewind my biological age.

I took it for ten months, and, I feel that it w take time for the changes in my DNA to filter through to how I look.

I want the anti ageing pill.

I have to pivot in the business. I feel that the tac I was taking w work. It means creating five more emails.

I can’t do anything until I have my laptop. I ordered a cheap one from Amazon. The email marketing software won’t work w my phone.

I got an email from Apple saying that my insurance has lapsed on my phone. This hurts a bit. I updated my payment method, tho it didn’t go through to my insurance.

I just hold space for the belief that I w have money soon and it w matter.

I’m intreagued by G’s commandments. I have noticed that if someone get’s fresh w their body language and I don’t react, they feel shame that they acted wac. I guess this sh rly works.

I w love to live in St Neots. The homes look so nice. I feel that Peterborough has lost it’s vibe and just feels dead.

this is a shame as I like to live in the city. It’s kinda horrible rly. I’m accepting that this town is not w it once w.

I remember when I w younger and how it felt here. It hurts to feel that the place is just a bit evil now, tbh.

I’ve decided that Ima have my dinner in the morning. I don’t have time for it in the evening, and I am out all day.

I bought a huge pack of Coca Cola, I w be able to take cans out w me. I need to budget wisely. I spent a lot of money w I had my relapse.

I w next to people on the bus who I felt had psychopathy. It felt homely. Ik tho that if I fw people like that that it w destroy my self esteem completely. It’s super weird.

I just wanna feel homely w|o that. I wanna feel loved. I wanna feel in my home like it feels like a rly nice home. It w super disturbing.

To Enjoying Home

Kirsty