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Idek what to say today. I w just say that I am grateful for J’s commandments and w they have shown me.

I feel I am a totally different person bc of following them. This is who I want to be, I feel I w never go back.

it w hard, I felt like people were trying to hold me back.

I’m kinda scared for who I w be in a few years. Like maybe peoples’ behaviour won’t even bother me anymore.

I mean, these commandments are totally working. I feel the way I wanted to feel, it has happened. I just k that it w happen more.

really my goal is to be around people and not feel like Idk like bothered by them. This w be super dope.

I’m learning stuff along the way tho, like what makes them tick; It’s a mash.

I’m kinda believing that these commandments come from heaven; who else c have taught me all this about what motivates people. How else c I see all this.

I’m looking forward to Christmas. I want a Christmas dinner and to plan my day out. We always used to have dinner at lunch time and then open presents; have like one present to open when we get up.

I wanna watch Christmas tv; just feel those Christmas vibes. My life is getting better year on year.

I suppose it’s the sabbath, where a n’a just stay in and chill.

it just feels so good to be doing this.

I have given up porn. I w getting unwanted sexual attention.

I Feel like different. I feel like people like me more. I feel like I like me more.

the business should work, I should have some money. I suppose that physical needs do reduce stress.

I remember when I had no access to any of my accounts. I remember when I had no access to money as well, and when I w locked up in the Cavell Centre. Every time I solved one of these problems, my stress went down a huge amount.

my place is a mess, a total mess, tho Ima not clear it up bc I don’t want to get my wound dirty. I’m looking forward to a months time when Ima do this.

Id want to be a liar here, I’ve rly struggled to do this in the past.

I suppose it’s just a case of looking at my life and seeing which areas need work. When I fix those problems that are most pertinent, I w feel the reduction in stress.

One of the things is rly needing to get the business to work. when this is done I w feel a lot less stress.

To Dealing W Basic Needs

Kirsty