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hey

I watched TimeCut. It w super good.

I vibe w these younger people more than I vibe w older ones. I feel this is a good thing, it means that I am healthier. I feel that people get more narcissistic as they get older.

I w attracted to Elephant Park, bc it had lots of communal areas, where Ima meet people. I don’t want to be in the city tho. St Ives seems rly nice.

I thank G for the fact that I resonate w young people more; I feel that it is following J’s commandments that has literally made me this way.

Ik that I am not like other older people, this is weird. I feel they hate the young. They seem to gaslight everything they say. I get on better w younger people.

I stopped my Buspirone. I have to tell my psychiatrist this on mon. I w just say that my anxiety w crazy high when I w on it; and ask for CBD instead. I’m scared that he won’t believe me. I am seeing him later today.

I need to buy some wound dressings from Amazon, as I need it changed more often than I can get done by the nurse. It is smelling rly bad. She has given me some tho I don’t have enough.

I want to get my scooter working as the busses cost a lot of money.

I need to pay my rent tho I can’t get into one of my accounts so I need to ring them today. it means going to the bank and getting it sorted. when I lost my phone I got locked out of all my apps.

I suppose I have to trust people.

I realise that there is nothing w w me. When I watched TimeCut I realised this. That is why I liked it so much.

I just need to keep doing what I am doing. I need to not be defined by my past. Life has opportunities, it does. Every morning I wake up I have the chance to change my life.

I have been doing this for years. I have to accept that this means that things w change.

I have a new energy. It is the energy of working to change things for a long time. It is the energy of being able to have a good life, to be real.

The truth is is that who I w is no longer w I am. I need to let go of that. I already am the person I wanna be.

being successful is an energy. It’s just the belief that good things are available in this world. That is how I feel.

To Feeling Positive

Kirsty