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I got offered therapy. I don’t want to go. W is weird bc I asked for it in the first place. I want to ring up and ask if I please may not partake.

my wound is better. It w infected. I feel this is bc of having a stinky bandage on it for too long. I just took it off and let it breathe.

I had lots to do yesterday. I didn’t get it all done.

today I am not waiting in to make a phone call as this is boring. Ima go out and do it when I get back.

I w taking ibuprofen sometimes at night. I felt this w a rly bad idea. I just w in more pain at night bc of it. So now I just take one aspirin.

it w a good idea for me to have some money saved as this meant that I didn’t have to tightly budget all the time. I find this stressful.

I feel the one whose gonna help me is me; so I have to make sure that I am able to look after me.

I feel that some medical interventions are complete nonsense. This makes me wary of doctors.

for example I feel that the wound w have been fine had it not been dressed and the air allowed to get to it. I am able to keep it fairly clean by having clean clothes on it.

the fact that the buspirone never worked; and that I feel having my wound dressed has just got it more infected, just makes me feel that a lot of medical interventions just don’t work at all.

There are other things that doctors do that I feel are no good also. So this is two phonecalls that I need to make today.

I just feel it’s not a big deal, that it’s not gonna help and it’s not gonna not help, it doesn’t even matter, at the very least is more likely to do harm.

I also have people coming to my home to tidy up, w I don’t want. I shouldn’t allow just anyone in my home to boss me around, and take control of my life.

I’ve had these people in my life before and it w hell, I just want them out.

I just want to get the business working and stay the hell away from everyone.

it w the thought of not having to work many hours a week that attracted me to it.

actually it w the thought that having wealth w make me feel whole, w it won’t. Tho somehow through everything I have done through this phase of my life, I have now got self esteem.

I feel that I have found how to be happy. A lot of people tend to spend time alone nowadays, it just seems to be the thing. I resonate w this one hundo. It rly is the best way.

it means that more of us are keeping our self esteem now.

Here’s To Self Esteem

Kirsty