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I sent my computer back, it didn’t even work.

I did on it what I needed to do.

Ima have a go at fixing my scooter myself. I bought some tyre levers.

I bought a mouse so that Ima adjust my webpage. Then I w be able to apply for the affiliate offer.

I want money coming in. I want to meet people.

I had to stay in yesterday to get my computer taken. I also had an appointment to dress the wound, so I didn’t have much day left after that.

like I say, I need to work on the business. My mouse doesn’t arrive yet tho. I don’t want to try w|o bc I hate feeling frustrated w technology.

I also have to pick up my tyre levers. They got sent about two miles away.

I get why that happened. I w in town when I ordered them so it w the closest.

I have so much faith that the business w make money. it rly keeps me going.

I need for my life to change. I need to meet people.

I don’t like voluntary work. I think about the people I met. I felt they were not a good fit for me. I honestly prefer being alone to that option.

I need dope people. I need people who don’t gaslight every word that I say; and leave me feeling worthless.

like when the things I say have no value then I have no value. That’s what it feels like, like they feel I am worthless and so do I.

People so have the ability to pull someone down.

I read in You Are A Badass that you are only as good as the five most dope people you fw.

I now k that this is so true, it totally is.

the only reason I am super dope is bc the main person I fw is me. I’m not getting devalued by anyone so Ima have any energy I want.

I don’t want to think about where I wanna live. This is where I w be meeting the people. I literally have to move to make this happen. It’s all a lot of change

I wanna get it done so bad. Like there have been so many setbacks it’s been ridiculous. Even just buying a computer to get the email marketing done, it didn’t even work.

nothing seems to work, I just feel stuck in the mud. I guess this is life.

this is why it’s best to learn early on that sh takes a lot of sorting out. Like when person get knocked down, it’s best to get back up early bc there gonna be a lot of challenges to getting back up.

this is how it feels, like I’m just trying to get back up and things keep holding me back.

I don’t hold that this is actually reality tho. It’s just a matter of waiting like twenty four hours or so. Everything is so ready to go it’s burning a hole in my phone.

there are some things that I need to do anyway, all tying up loose ends from losing my phone and dicking around with different accounts.

there w so much sh that that caused. That’s probably why I feel like I’m sorting sh out. I’m still stuck in the feelings of that phase; even tho I have moved into a different one.

I just need for my feelings so catch up w where I actually am; rn. Again, all I need to do is wait.

First thing I need to do is find out my phone number.

Here’s To Sorting Sh Out

Kirsty