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I feel I am doing super well w budgeting. It’s not that hard to only get food, nutritious food that I have to prepare.

I taught myself to make chilli. I have been having sunday dinners as well.

I enjoy budgeting as it gives me a feeling of wellbeing and gratitude.

I must have a break from the business; as it is the sabbath today.

this is gonna frustrate me as I want to work on it so strongly as I am so close to posting or running an offer.

I must get my washing done tho as I need to keep my wound clean.

I have become aware that reality is there, underneath. this w quite unsettling; as I have been telling myself that this place w just dead; turned to sh bc all the people had turned bad.

the fact is is that this place has always been bad. Tho the feelings are there. It feels amazing to live here; I remember when I w young.

it’s exactly the place that I remember when I w young. It is still the same place.

what I have to accept is that I lost the feeling w|i me and that is why I c feel the happy feelings of this place. It w a little overwhelming to realise that, and humbling.

now I must just wait for the feelings to come back; to be able to feel the dopeness of this place; to be happy.

I suppose the reason Ik this is that I can feel it a little bit; and there is no denying that that is the feeling; the same old feeling it always had.

I want to be able to do great things. I just hope that I get to live a long life. I have nailed life rly. I have lit that life inside, and just want to fly away and do all the things I dream of doing.

J’s commandments have given me the ability to realise all the things I wanna do; and there’s a lot that I wanna do.

there’s the fuel cell and then there’s the graphine transistor. I also wanna play bogonja, and maybe live on billionaires row or just stay here and not tell anyone.

it’s tempting to travel the world. I w like to see New York, live there for a while. I also wanna stay at The Brando.

J’s commandments have given me the ability to do all these things.

that is another reason why it is hard to not do any work today. I’m chomping so bad I’m going crazy.

I figured out how to run the email marketing software. This w the last piece in the puzzle of k ing how to run an offer. There is no knowledge barrier preventing me from getting it done.

there w be no hiccups. There is nothing now that can go wrong.

it’s kinda scary to think how my life w change. I w have money. I’m scared that people w want it and that I won’t have anyone who wants me for me.

I just have to have faith in being the person I rly am, and just embody my true self and hope that it all works out.

there’s no going back; bc I want this more than I have wanted anything, especially to do the research on the other stuff.

I feel compelled to give the world new technology, stuff that w so radically change things that the world w never be the same again.

I want to see Africa producing the majority of the world’s energy, as I have said before. That country has suffered long enough due to it’s poor environment.

then the graphine transistor. How this w change the world Idek. Maybe we will end up w faster than light travel.

If you take a ball, slightly smaller than a tennis ball, and call it the sun in like the UK in the south; and say how far the nearest star is, it is only in Spain somewhere.

We need to get there. I don’t think it’s that hard. I don’t think the stars are actually that far.

I feel that this light years stuff is just supposed to make us think that they are impossibly far away; maybe out of the inability to understand that dna forms anywhere you get the right elements in the right proportions.

life is not like this huge miracle. It w happen anywhere you have those elements. It’s simply a chemical reaction that happens.

To Doing The Impossible

Kirsty