Boggy

hey

So I feel I’m dying in one respect, and getting my feelings back in another.

I w watching ASMR with august. I w feeling things that I didn’t feel before. My feelings are rapidly getting stronger.

When I am on the bus; I feel like I’m driving home w daddy when I w a kid; coming home from Grandma’s.

it blows my mind how I feel so much more spending time on my own.

I’m itching to go w the business. I must first check if the webpage is loading properly on a computer.

One option is to email the company; and ask them if it w be alright for them to check it for me.

This rly appeals to me, and all they have to do it type it in. I love asking for help; so f much, honestly; I find it moving every time someone helps me.

That’s why I w love to do it bc it means so much. I also w love to show them my website, w so much excitement; and if they like it I w be so happy, for having done a good job.

I w looking at it yesterday. It’s actually rly good.

Oh, one last thing. I have to type a enticing bit for the email marketing, just about six words or something.

I feel more and more every day; w is good, bc I need to feel full in my feelings.

When I w young, I just felt that the world w so abundant, and I need to feel it again bc it’s such a good feeling; especially when I am in town.

At the moment it feels skanky and depressing.

I am no stranger to things messing w my reality. When I had my relapse I had the delusion that all the agencies had closed down bc the town had turned into such a sh hole. That there w no way to get a job.

so, the level of jankiness is something that is like fluid and can go up and down. I just need to feel all my feelings.

So Excited To Be Feeling More

Kirsty