Hey

I’ve had one hell of a day.

I’ve figured something out; w is that people actually give people cancer by being verbally abusive to them.

I feel that my self esteem is rly good now and w always be.

This is great. I’m actually so happy about this.

It’s been a long battle; learning that I have worth.

I took today for myself bc it w tough.

I w try again tomorrow, maybe; to work on the business; and get after it.

The thing is is tho, that, people w always try and take away your self esteem. It doesn’t matter how much money you have, they w always be there ready to bring you down.

So it’s good that my focus w always J’s commandments bc they focus on increasing self worth.

Unlike just going for a business, and hoping that having tons of money w mean that social status and the inability of people to snatch it away.

Wrong

People w always be able to steal self esteem unless you deal w it; w I have.

I cancelled my nurses appointment bc I w struggling. Like I say, I needed some time for me.

I w have to put dressings on myself for a while.

I feel that when someone is down, people actively keep them down.

I feel that is w I have been struggling w for like four years.

I w say to anyone who is trying to make themself a better person that this w always be the main challenge.

Tho it is possible to rise above this; eventually

In James it says that… Idk what it says tho I w paraphrase that to hold on J is coming eventually

And also that these trials are good bc they are a strengthening of faith.

There w this post on Tumblr that said you are only as pretty as you treat people. Idk the author it w years ago.

It’s rly through being respectful that I have got here.

To Working On Myself

Kirsty