Hey

I feel that everyone’s evil. this is rly hard to deal w. What woke me up to it w the twenty nine or so abusive comments I got that day.

People on the bus just trying to rip me up.

I remember being like this w I w younger. I w make noises w the plug socket in my room to pi off my neighbours when I felt they were being evil towards me through the walls.

It’s waking up to the fact that the world is a horrid place. Tho when I w in London and Cambridge no body did this, that w just no w they were like.

I feel they are deliberately ripping up anyone who has self esteem bc it triggers their narcissistic injury, and that is the culture of the whole town.

My brother came to see me. I feel it w only bc he wanted the adulation of how well I am doing w the business.

I feel that he whisteled to get everyone to break into my flat as he left. I feel sure now that he has ASBD as no one normal w do this.

That is not a brother that I need; that is why I didn’t want to speak to him, bc it w have just been abusive and been him ripping me up the whole time he w here.

I felt before that he had ASBD bc it w something that he shared w my abuser. He used to say see see said the blind man sitting at the corner of the round table eating currants out of a plain bun.

I feel that that w him taking the pi out of me for not seeing how things rly are, the reality of someone w ASBD.

I see people w ASBD on the bus. I see that they k that people w empathy are not problem, bc the minute they get aggressive bc of having their narcissistic injury triggered, they instantly lose it due to being too emotional.

That is why they are no threat, they k this. It’s like the little bit of empathy they have destroys them.

this is a sad horrible day for me, k ing that everyone is evil. K ing that I w be ripped up every time I go out as long as I live in this town.

It’s horrid, truly horrid.

I feel that it’s something sexual, that they think they are following the culture of eyes.

Idk why people who have had sex become so evil. Perhaps it’s bc of the culture of evil and the validation of sex furthering their abuse of people; in the delusory realm of vision.

Ik that all pathological narcissists live in a parralel reality. I see that they are deluded into thinking that they are doing G’s work when they rip someone up bc it is triggering their narcissistic injury.

It’s a very scary place to live. They c literally do the most evil thing, like rape me, and think they are doing G’s work. All bc I have self esteem and they subconsciously must destroy it.

I don’t feel safe here at all, they are all insane.

Like I say I w being threatened w rape by like twenty nine people in one day, and Ik they w have done it; like a gang rape in the middle of the street w everyone joining in; that is how scary a place I feel it is.

It reminds me of in the middle east where those four lads were beheaded bc of raping and burning alive that girl. I feel they were doing it bc of their eyes, and the delusion of vision, thinking that they were doing the right thing devaluing her to death. I feel it is the same here and am scared of the same thing.

That is what I feel my brother did when he whistled. To get them on me.

To Being Aware W People Are LIke

KIrsty