Hey

I w kinda wondering when t w that I w feeling this way last time. It w w I had come off my buspirone.

The thing is is tho that, I never used to have these feelings. It wasn’t till I started taking buspirone that I started feeling them.

I reckon if I just give it time to get that junk out of my system I w be alright.

it also increased my anxiety like f. I w get triggered every time the dose w running out that w give me psychological damage.

I wanna come off all these pills; tho I am mature enough now to actually ask for more; w I had to do on Fri when I w losing it and having a relapse.

Ik I had to do it fast; bc I lose it fast and get so’s I’m unable to ask. At that point i’m f; talking major body damage.

broken leg and torn thigh.

I Feel that what I have to make is k as a psychological adjustment.

maybe that is why I c never come off the risperidone; bc I c never make the psychological adjustment bc of being on Buspirone all the time.

I must deal w this stress and pain, and allow it to just peter out and go away over time.

I feel that it is these feelings that are actually giving me my schizophrenia. It’s so stressful that it causes my mind to just turn to jelly and leave me a gibbering mess.

I w naughty. I worked on another project. I spent time that I c have got the business running, on it.

it’s a piece of advice that is correct. An entrepreneur only has a certain amount of water to water each plant.

so I must get back and focus on what I am working on atm; tho it w satisfying to try and make it work. I think i’m nearly there as well.

Tho this is always the case that I think that I am always there.

I am back on the offer I w working on, realising that I have wandered off.

I wanna hit that offer as soon as possible; I am ready to go. I must finish setting up my Awin account; and then look into the terms and conditions to see about applying, and what the penalty is for being rejected.

the website shifts around on different devices and Idk whether this w be acceptable w the offer.

it’s a pretty high acceptance rate so it shouldn’t be a problem.

Like I say tho, it w satisfying when I worked on the other thing, I got pretty far w it, and I w more passionate about it bc it w artistic.

Anyway, To Staying In My Lane

Kirsty