hey

I’m happy w the person I am.

I feel that J’s commandments have improved me as a person so much, I even look prettier.

I have indeed become the person I w love to attract.

I feel the problem now is staying away from people who bring my self esteem down. Finding people to fw who bring it up.

I read this book You Are A Badass; and it said that you are the product of the five closest people you fw.

It sort of means that you w not become a better person if their energy is pulling you down.

This is rly good life advice.

I’m scared tho. Ik the closeness of intimacy can destroy me if I’m w the w person.

Fortunately it’s not about money, it’s about energy, w I have in spades. I just radiate it.

I suppose a new voluntary job w allow me to meet someone new, someone who matches my energy and won’t pull me down w their narcissism and their need to pull me down to inflate their self esteem.

I have to wait till Monday before Ima have a look.

I mustn’t do any work today. I am having two sabbaths this week.

I have found that not working allows me to come up w new ways to make money.

The rule is I must not look anything up on my phone and I mustn’t write anything down.

I just sit there and have a think; what can I do w w Ik. Trying to put what I have learned in order and seeing if there is anything Ima figure out around it.

I find that the less I work the higher my energy is; w flies in the face of the notion that you absolutely have to work your ass off if you wanna be successful.

I am so happy who I have become following J’s commandments, tho I feel I need like erm validation that it w the right thing to do through making a ton of money.

I’ve been in this situation before and I feel the validation w come, I feel it on it’s way; and it w come super soon as well, before I am making money

Maybe it w be just that I am approved for the offer I have gone for

To Working On Myself

Kirsty